Im so infautuated with my own boyfriend, sometimes I lie beside him and I just want to touch him but I am afraid. Im afraid that he will see just how much I love him and want to be near him. I want him to make love to me constantly. He scares me sometimes and even then I still love him because I know he will not hurt me at least not badly. I love when he screams at me and then makes love to me to make it all better.