I am a girl, and I have a crush on a lesbian. I thought I was straight until now, but I guess I'm bicurious/bisexual? I have no fucking idea! I have been sooo frustrated and stressed lately about figuring out who I am and what I like and what to label myself. I would never EVER come out as bi or les, but I can do it anonymously here and it gives me some relief. The only problem is, I'm not sure if I want to be gay. Like, I used to be absolutely disgusted with it, but now I seem less disgusted and more open-minded to it. When you put it in perspective, if I truly am gay, then I would want people to think of me no differently, so I can't think of other LGBT any differently that I look at myself. The girl that I like is actually my trainer. She is 30, and engaged to a woman. I am still just a teen, so I know that nothing would EVER happen between us and I wouldn't want it to, but I just can't stop thinking about her and I feel very much attracted to her. I never really was interested/curious about lesbians before this, but after meeting her (I met her recently) it's all I can think about. She seems so happy and very confident with herself and not at all ashamed of who she is, and I didn't even realize that was possible for lesbians. I have been researching lesbians and coming out and girl crushes nonstop and I am a bit worried I have actual feelings for this woman. I am so scared, and especially stressed right now. I have no one that I feel comfortable talking to about this with, so it looks like I'll ust resort to this anonymous confession site. *sigh* Thanks for reading to whoever read this whole fucking thing!
